Suddenly

I know I shouldn't think about all these when my final(note: FINAL!) exam is coming soon.
Suddenly, I just thought about some family friends.( in fact they are also in one family)
They really impacted my life,I miss them a lot.
Sometimes, it's just so hard to admit that we care and we love, isn't it?
One of my best friend told me recently,
"I was once afraid to say I love you to anybody"
I sighed, am I the same too?

Blame it on movies or books, they often potray human relationships in a happy manner,which is totally untrue.
Relationships can die off easily.
But( the big BUT):)
THere is always hope!
Sometimes when we are so used to a person's nature , we tend to create some sort of a bond with them. When they leave or we leave, the pain is there. For a period of time.

Sometimes, I do feel super inferior when I stand with my friends.
YOU NAMED IT
THEY HAVE IT

But guess what they told me
" I wish I could be like you"
I was ???
What?
" You are you. There's no faking or this and that."
Oh well, I'll take that as a compliment:)

One thing I learn during this few years, is to be your true self.
There's no point wearing a mask or putting a false front, because you are just lying to yourself.

Suddenly, I just had so many things to say. But I can't tell anybody. So, I better write it down and say it out loud!

Joycelyn Ong
Sixteen going on seventeen!

The things I want to do!

I love to dream. So, here are the top 30 things I really hope I can do.

1. Publish a book(I don't care whether is it in which language, as long there's my name on it!)

2. Host a TV show( Inspired about Martha Stewart)
3.Write 100 poems( I think I should start off now)
4. Write 100 songs
5.Memorize 100 songs
6.Own a library( I mean a big one)
7. Meet the world leaders( or rather interview them)
8.Learn to play the guitar
9.Learn to play the drums
10. Act in a real movie( Almost dome that..)
11.Produce a movie
12.Produce an album
13. Learn a foreign language(bon jour, aligato, adios, upa.....)
14.Pls, dun laugh... Learn to ride a bicycle
15.Write 100 stories
16.Decorate a person's house( So, feel free to call me, foc)
17. Watch movies that are reallyx1oo great!
18. Be a badminton star( It was my father's dream and mine too, sometimes, I just hope I can smash Lin Dan...)
19. Learn a dance( with somebody.. ahem...)
20.Set up a website
21.Own a car
22.Travel around the world in 90 days!
23. Climb a mountain.
24.Make a snowman
25 Fishing
26. Swim( Warning, don't laugh!)
27.Tale some good pictures
28. Be my best friends' bridesmaid
29.Wear kebaya( Inspired by Little Nyonya)
30.Just be myself!

Don't be surprise by the last statement,it's very important! So to conclude, I will work hard and smart, with God's grace, to be what he wants me to achieve and to dream The dream.
p/s I might be old fashioned and long winded, at least I'm happy with who I am now!

Surprise,surprise...

Hey there, just want to let you guys know I have another blog .
joyceeong.blogspot.com

I just want to train myself in blogging , it depends on my mood, whether I want to do it My Way or Old is gold....
Sometimes, it's good to have two blogs, ( I have three!) Ha!
I began to love this blog and my other blog because they represent me a lot.
What about you? Are you lonesome tonight? Blog it or write it out!

With love,
Joycelyn